I gave up on writing

Because of my health conditions, I’m limited in what I can do and so that limited me as the person I saw. I had forgotten parts of who I am. I forgot this passion I had for writing about God. I used to see little mundane things, that most people don’t think of, and was able to find a connection with God about it. I lost that girl for a while. She had found purpose and it was delightful. But that fire eventually burned out. My mental health problems overcame me. I choose to delete my Instagram posts and deleted the blog forever. I’m devastated at what I did with all that hard work, it leaves me heartbroken.

The devil was really attacking me, telling me so many lies. “What if I sound stupid, what if I don’t encourage anyone, what if I fail, what if it’s too much, is it really worth it, what if I’m not enough”, and more. So I gave up, thinking that it was better since no one would judge me now. It’s been years and I’m still healing from the brokenness this has caused. But I have decided that I want to fight for that little girl. She never gave herself anything, only to others around. I’m having to learn how to love myself again. Because only through that, have I been able to grow with Christ and His love. I was intentionally looking for God in every place. My dream is to have that back again. I pray that God opens my eyes to see Him more in the little things.

I pray for anyone out there that has a dream. It’s a process that is not easy, you may be in the waiting, and you may want to give up. But God has something good and beautiful coming for you. It may not be the perfect vision you had in mind, but if you align your heart with God’s will, your dreams can become reality. Take that step of faith and don’t quit no matter when things fall apart. Follow God first, before your dreams. He sees your desires, He doesn’t forget them, and He will use your gifts for His glory! 🤍