A poem…
Hide the pain behind her smile
A mask she’s worn for a while
Fake it till you make it they say
There didn’t seem to be another way
And so she tried and she tried
To hold back the tears in her eyes
The aching deep in her heart
The very thing that’s meant to kept her alive
Felt more like a monster dressed in disguise
She felt less alone and seen when others were around. Even admits the sound,
there was relief in this world of pretending.
Wanting to have the image that she portrayed so well on the outside. But all she ever did was hide, and it took a huge toll on her mind. So she set out for the freedom that she needed to find.
Kept trying to craft together a story that wasn’t even meant for her. She had to learn to hold on to her journey, even when it felt too much to endure.
It took time to find that new space, but she knew it was okay to go at her own pace. Letting go of locked up feelings and breathing in peace and healing.
Though she still mourns the girl she once was
And all the things she had to let go of
She’s reminded of rejoicing
at the girl that she has become
Maybe she had to lose what she had
Stripped of details that held on for so long
So that she could find what truly matters
And maybe she lost that space she felt secure in
The melody written in her song
But she had to step outside her comfort zone
To find where she truly belonged
She allowed herself piece by piece
to come out of hiding
Knowing she is enough
as she continued on fighting
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