At the beginning of every year, I have a word to represent that year. My word chosen for 2023 was READINESS. This word actually perfectly described things. And it’s so powerful to me and I just know that it is God and apart of His great work.
Readiness is a noun and it means “willingness to do something”.
2023 has been a huge growth period and I’m so grateful for it. My health still brought it’s daily challenges. But I felt like things were a little more in place and not as crazy busy. I was really able to prioritize rest and take care of my health. I did new treatments, including one near the end of the year for depression, which actually started helping some. I started feeling like I wanted to do things. It made me want to go out in the world and enjoy life. Isolation due to my conditions has often got in the way. But I started feeling a bit more motivated to do things. The reality of chronic illness would still make that hard, but I felt willing to do something more. I was ready. I am ready.
But I need my readiness to be paired with trusting God’s timing. So I’ll keep fighting through this waiting season, because I know the Lord is good and intentional with how He plans things.
Here is a prayer I wrote last year in September:
Lord, it feels like I keep getting stuck in a waiting season. Every day seems mundane. I just want something more/bigger/better to happen in my life. It feels like I'm on a record on repeat. Will there be more? I’m truly am grateful for the things in my life right now. The craziness has settled down some. But what meaning does this empty space have. I just want a challenge. And I'm here to say that I am ready. Test my faith. But I know that your timing is perfect and you know what's best for me. You could be strengthening my faith in this season. You could be solidifying my time with you or preparing me for something bigger. So l trust what feels like meaningless is actually for a purpose, for my benefit, and for your glory. Help me Lord to be patient and expectant of you. Give me hope. Don't let me be a person that is only happy if I get something. Let me be a person that continually pursues you and your truth and love. Help me to use my time wisely and direct my every step Lord. In Jesus' Name Amen
My word for 2024 is Cultivation, which I am excited about. Let me know what your word of the year is! 🤍
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