✨The past week has been chaotic. I was having severe stomach pain, different then my normal. After a week, it became too much so I went to the ER Sunday evening. I got a CT scan which showed thickening and inflammation of my appendix. I was admitted into the hospital and took antibiotics. But I was still having the pain so I ended up needing surgery to get my appendix removed. The doctor said that I did in fact have appendicitis. I spent 3 nights in the hospital. And I got back home on Wednesday; with one less organ haha. I'm sore and exhausted, but trying my best to recover and heal from this.
Goodbye appendix.
✨Having surgery is not what I expected to happen but I thank the Lord for setting everything in it’s place. Looking back I see the kindness of God through the nurses/doctors. I see the care and protection that the Lord covered over me. Being sick in the hospital sucked but I’m grateful that overall I had a good stay. And I know that was the Lord working.
✨ To be honest, this past week I was kinda distant from God. I felt ashamed for forgetting to simply thank God in gratitude. I was so focused on the medical aspect that I forgot the presence of the Lord. I’m trying to give myself compassion though because I know God would want me to.
But I asked for forgiveness.
Praying... Please forgive me for not having gratitude towards you Lord. Please forgive me for neglecting your presence Lord.
✨And though I still felt off about the experience, I was able to lay down some worry and leave it at the feet of Jesus. I no longer had to carry that burden. That’s not my responsibility—that’s Jesus’ job. Our responsibility is to turn away from that sin, and obey the Lord.
✨Even though I felt a loss of connection with God at that time, I noticed I was still able to rest and have less fear, because I think my heart trusted in God all along. I just wasn’t giving Him the honor and praise that I should have. And I’m gonna work on that. We probably all need to work on that—so I pray that we have hearts of worship towards our Heavenly Father. He deserves all the glory forever and forever.
✨I wrote this in my prayer journal for today:
Lord, recovering from surgery has brought many moments, good and bad. Some have been filled with anxiety and pain and sin; others the strength and power and love you give have washed over me and helped me persevere. No matter what happens, you remain faithful and true to your word. You stay with me, even when I wander away. You pursue after me, even when my passion runs dry. You care for me, even when I’ve lost the energy to fight. You hold me up, even when I’ve fallen in sin. You love me, even when my actions hurt you. You forgive me, even when I don’t deserve it. Thank you Lord for being all you are in all that I am not. In Jesus’ Name Amen
You are loved!
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